Dear Joe, 

I think you are focusing too much on your feelings, and when we do that it means we are still the center of our thoughts and decisions. It is OK for our feelings to prod us, but they cannot be the defining element in our decisions. I hope that's clear.

What I mean is, your feelings of frustration and boredom at your present place might trigger reflection as to what value there is to what you are doing, they might get you thinking what life is really about. Once you start on your reflection you have to set your feelings aside, you have to get to more solid ground, truths you can build your life on.

Why? Because no matter what vocation in life you follow you are going to go through a stage (or many stages) of adverse feelings, when things seem to go wrong, when you feel wretched about some aspect of it, and you feel like giving up.

So when you make a choice in life, you should choose something that brings you happiness and makes you enthusiastic, but not only because it does. The happiness and enthusiasm it brings should stem from something more profound that will still give you direction and stability when those feelings are gone. I would even say you have to choose something that will bring you happiness even when the feeling of happiness is gone."

For example, if because of what you describe above you decide to give your life to Christ as a priest, you will naturally be enthusiastic when you start out because you have those wonderful feelings when you are close to the Eucharist. But as you go on you will meet people who will reject and may even hate you because of what you preach (Jesus' message is a difficult one: honesty, purity, sacrifice...), and you will have more than a few down days. If you choose to follow him now because of the nice feelings, you might abandon him when those feelings are gone.

So I would say: is God speaking to you through your feelings, telling you something about life, about why he made you? Try to answer that question, why he made you, I mean.

Go to him in the Eucharist and ask him why he gave you life, how you can use it best. Speak about this with a prudent person you trust. Then base your decisions on the truths you discover, not on the feelings that first set the whole process in motion.