Dear Raj,

What you have to do is very simple, but given our human nature it is at the same time difficult.

You have to come down from the world of imagination and dreams, and make a decision in the real world.

The real world tells us that you cant have and fulfill both of your contradictory dreams together, so you have to make a decision as regards which you will pursue. And it is better to make that decision sooner rather than later, so as not to waste your time living with this division and dissatisfaction in your interior, which would not be the formula for happiness.  

Now, making a decision in the real world doesnt mean a decision made purely for natural and horizontal motives. Part of your real world is your faith, the reality of your Baptism, the reality of souls, and Gods will for you.

If you truly believe in your vocation you will avoid any attachment that will endanger it. If you give up this friendship in order to choose Christ your relationship with him will take a huge step forward. You say you love your vocation, but perhaps this love is still on the level of an infatuation, something that makes you feel good. If it is going to mature into a real love it is going to need to pass through the test of sacrifice. You will know and be able to say you truly love your vocation when you are faced with alternatives and still choose it, freely, because you value it more, because when you look on it with faith you see it is the pearl of great price for which you sacrifice all other real or possible pearls.

I will keep you in my prayers.