Dear Elizabeth,  

Obviously you have been very attentive to God's voice in your soul, and continue to be eager to do his will. Don't let the ups and downs or the mistakes distract you from your purpose or make you doubt about his love and fidelity.  

It seems to me, if you were received into the Church last Easter and have already done 4 months postulancy, that it probably was a little hasty to have entered when you did. Normally it is best to let at least a year and a half go by before entering religious life.  

My suggestion to you is this: Plan on at least another year before entering religious life. Use this year to grow in your understanding and practice of the Catholic faith: go often to Mass, get a spiritual director and a regular confessor, give yourself to your work or studies, read and study about the faith, do some apostolic work, and especially continue to keep your vocation foremost in your mind.  

If you think the Benedictines is the place God is calling you, visit them regularly and get their input. In your social life make sure all your decisions are guided by thoughts of your vocation.  

Be sure of my prayers.